This rainy season was hard on me. There were a couple of deaths, one of my wonderful friends moved away, and I recently received not the bestest news about a loved family member. It has all left me with an aching feeling from holding hands, being strong, keeping a smile on my face – partly for the wee tot who doesn’t understand loss yet, and partly to keep myself from breaking down.
But, most of all, I’ve decided it is time to take charge. To be me. To stop and really smell the roses.
Let me interject right here that if you know me, you are aware I’m not a big touchy-feely loving person. I care, I share, I love, but I’m not as giving physically as I would like to be. Hey, I’m not perfect. I’m working on it. I’m working on hugging more, saying kind words more, being “me” more.
When my friend recently moved I hugged her and kissed her as hard as I could. I let the tears fall and didn’t feel shame or embarrassment. In a way, I was letting it all out – letting myself FEEL.
And. It felt good.
I mean, it didn’t feel good she was moving away, but it DID feel GOOD to be EMOTIONAL.
As I sit on my spa deck enjoying a drink this evening (after creating a man-cave for the hubs in the garage – UGH), I am hugging and kissing my family and sending big hugs and kisses to all of you reading this.
Yes. YOU. Because it’s been a long, hard rainy season and the sun is finally shining. I can’t deal with any more loss, bottled up tension or emotion.
I really think you should stop whatever you are doing (reading this) and go give some hugs and kisses, too.
Do it now.